to whom it may concern:

my ever dearest... I miss you sooo much... I'm not gonna lie... in the past two years to be exact... so much has changed that you've felt out of reach... so much so that I stopped sharing. Maybe you did too... well you did... but maybe for other reasons idk really... but now when i'm hurting is that i realize the one trait of yours that I've missed... it's your loyalty. I remember you used to tell me how if something happened to one of your best friends or so that you couldn't let go of that... you would go so far as to hate that person if I hated them too... cousin... now is when I need that. Now that I see that a friend has not held that loyalty for me is that I appreciate that specific trait of yours.