today...

i lost a piece of me in you
i think i left it in your arms
i forget the reasons i got scared but remember that i cared quite a lot
you see but lately i've been on my own
yeah one but one by choice
you see that's a first for me this only me
yeah there's only me and now i realize for once it's just me

it's just me
it's just me
and i'll find a way to make it
there's no one left to stop me
here i go can we take it from the top

so wide, so long, so sad i wanna be strong
don't try to take this from me
I've already spent living half my life undone
so wide, so long, so sad i wanna be strong
don't try to take this from me
i've already spent my life living half undone

i've been talking to my aunts, and uncles, mom and dad again
i've been finding out that i have what this world is called friends
i've tried to push them all away, they push me back and want to stay
and that's one good thing i have
i'm gonna feel a peace in me
i'm gonna feel at home
i'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear be gone
i wanna feel a punch inside my heartbeat on the floor

i don't wanna hurt no more

it's just me
it's just me
and i'll find a way to make it
there's no one left to stop me
here i go can we take it from the top

....

today two years ago my aunt passed away...

today... my world feels upside down...


...
it's me, the one who won before
i used to smile but don't no more
I'm living just to watch it all go by