You know it's amazing how from day to day you never know what each person's story is, that they might be dealing with more than what you see. Here's my last year and a half.
I'm only telling this to get it out of my system, to de-stress, in order to look back upon what I was carried through.
November 4, 2008 (Yes, it was voting day) I actually got to be some type of judge for that day and it was an awesome experience I rather enjoyed it. Little did I know what I was coming home to. It had been a long day already from 7am-8pm. I came home to find out that my aunt had passed away. She had been in an accident driving home from one kids house to the next kids making it home finally. I couldn't believe it. Just the previous week we had thought about giving her a puppy, just that summer she had returned from going on an all siblings trip... minus two because we had a wedding that summer therefore my dad couldn't make it and my uncle stayed for some odd reason. But how did this happen! She left three kids... they had been the oldest cousins. I hadn't seen them in years. In fact when I took time to count it out I had not seen Tia Sarita in 13 years!!! I was in shock. How could I have let so much time go by. How could I have no recent memories to speak about when we all gathered together for the funeral services. I sat silent through it all, I didn't even keep constant communication with her through the years. We came back ready to continue the school year. But with every day, every step, every class, teacher, everything I couldn't help but think "wow, this is horrible, and nobody knows my pain, I have to pull myself together, but I can't help but feeling so vulnerable at death" life goes on right. Life went on and so I went on.
Graduation weekend May 1-3, 2008. Hardly any family came. But who did come was my other aunt (Tia Anita). And my uncle sam. friends and family from dallas came. It was nice but it was rather disappointing due to the swine flu. Most of all though my immediate family of five was here and to that I am soo glad. My aunt was unexpected. She was amazing! a few months ahead of that we had been keeping contact, but never did I expect her to make it. It was HUGE. So by that time it clicked family is important. That weekend though sure enough it struck again. My cousin on my mom's side got into a horrible car accident in mexico. A week later or so, she passed away. She was 19. "younger than me!, how can this be!?" I couldn't fathom it. By then I started the MBA full time. in fact it was overtime. Never in my mind did I think it would be sooo challenging. I guess had I been thinking realistically I should've expected it but I didn't so there I went full-on. There was no time to go to that funeral, services over-there are from one day to the next so... life went on. My Tia Anita's daughter was graduating with her MBA that June, so we went, of course! How could I not, her mom made it to mine! It was such a great time! Classes continued, school began and soon enough it hit again. This time it was my Tia Anita. She had been on a trip with two of her daughters having a good time and before they knew it she was in the hospital getting worse, until she came into a diabetic coma. I couldn't believe it! Life was soo fragile one day to the next and how could we not be keeping in contact with all of our family!
FOUR MONTHS! Four months in the up and down and hardly any contact. It was horrible. The whole time I'm not giving
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