what i do remember

i don't even remember how it happened. i've asked priss to see if she remembers but i think the greyhound bus has lulled her to sleep, or, her battery has gone out. either way

what i do remember...

is hearing about you from her classes with you. she thought the world of you. she had many crushes back then so i didn't think much of it. then i got to... life and teachings of jesus. Where we sat i think one or two rows in from the wall and about the fifth and sixth seat in from the front. how you happened to sit there? i don't know honestly. maybe you saw and recognized her? good question. either way i know you sat diagonal from us... i think anyway (if my memory serves me right) hannah sat either next to you or behind you but that was quite entertaining to watch.

i just remember your blue eyes, smile, easy going attitude, general outfit of jeans and a t-shirt, sometimes a baseball cut shirts and a cap always, never missing.

though class was the location to most definitely see you at. once did i see you, we were on our way out of the dorm and you were in the lobby with your sister, i think it was a saturday night and you had said you were tagging along with your sister and her friends.

Everyday class was good before, during and after, it was nice that it was such a large class it gave time for us all to hang out and listen to hannah stating how good looking you were and such. it's actually funny because i remember knowing and acknowledging that you were attractive but i didn't give it a second thought. that was it. we thought you were cute but most definitely out of our circle.

case and point that we never hung out... ever...

i don't see how it could have happened unless there was some type of interest on either of our ends.

i've wondered what if... a lot lately... and sometimes regret never having hung out... i do regret that. but then i think of some of the people that i did hang out with in those days, and most i don't even talk to anymore. somehow i think that lack of connection kept the interest and contact there? perhaps. i don't know. i also think that one of the conversations we did have in class we had decided that you would go to SWAU the year we would be gone as SM's and make friends so that by the time we got back and transferred over we'd know somebody there! we were so silly... i think we actually thought it would work... for a split second anyway. ;)