sleepless...

it's 4 a.m. and i can't sleep. i don't know why? it's not like i slept that much only about an hour and a half. anyway for the past hour i've been watching youtube videos, checking my e-mail, looking at pictures, and exercising lol. I know, i know, it's crazy! jajaja. so while i'm at it let me tell you about my life. this semester has been depressing. I have no determination, or motivation towards anything in the future. I have all these doubts about my career and my happiness in it. i've begun to see the chiropractor and it turns out i'm more messed up than what i expected so i've started treatments. spring break has officially began and i'm still stuck doing homework from the first half of the semester. I plan on doing the rest of the semesters homework so I can worry about studying for tests, and all the other things that might come across my path the rest of the semester. It's scary to think that in about 6 weeks I will have finished my degree. I don't like it. Does everyone go through doubts and insecurities, as they approach graduation? cuz i sure have a buttload of them. I'm not gonna lie, i've been looking forward to this semester for so long, thinking that it would be the beginning of such a bright future for myself, I don't know what to think of it anymore. In fact i'm glad i'm going on to do my MBA because otherwise i'd have to worry about 'real' life for myself.